When you badly want it to work
You sacrifice even your bottom line
Look for your cigarette to subdue the stress
Ignore the detrimental effect on your health
Make it your permanent way of escape
Gradually shut your common sense down
Lose your hesitance in losing yourself to love
You do not fear
You embrace my greed
Everything is spiralling out of your control
But I will be the anchor to hold you down
Give you your cigarette to calm you down
You start to notice, somehow your life is better with me
Just stepping out of my line of sight
Makes you experience life horribly
You feel like your life is not your own anymore
It is possessed and obsessed over by someone not you
But you're sleeping peacefully even with that fact
It brings comfort to never think of the possibility of being left behind
I have a strong emotional attachment to the things I own
I never let go
Like your little attempt to gain independence
You heard me screaming all night
You never did it again
Like your pathetic rebellious act of breaking up with me
You heard me threaten you
That the love of your life might die because of you
And the guilt and longing will eat you inside out for years
It leaves a bad taste in your mouth
Just thinking about missing my presence
And the bare minimum warmth I provide
Your emotions are fucked out of your comprehension
You crave that
Push and pull
Hot and cold
Love and hate
Mind games we do
Love should exhaust you mentally and physically
Else
Without the rollercoaster stimulation
You know you may find out I no longer care for you
You don't want to regret it so you hold on
For the hundredth time
Ignoring your instincts to run
Hunny, I love that part of you