Showing posts with label breakup. Show all posts
Showing posts with label breakup. Show all posts

Who would have thought

 

In the end

I still think about you


I make my way to your city

A bit scared to meet you coincidentally

A bit expectant honestly


What will I say?

What will I do?


Most importantly, it depends on you


What will you say?

How fast will you run away?

Are you willing to be someone I want but not who you are?


But I dare not reach out to you

For feeling so strong in leaving

Then having the nerve to regret it


Will the harm I bring outweigh the peace you gain?


In the end

Failing to keep my emotions in check again and again




© VJEQ


I Want To Be Your Everything


When you badly want it to work

You sacrifice even your bottom line 


Look for your cigarette to subdue the stress

Ignore the detrimental effect on your health

Make it your permanent way of escape


Gradually shut your common sense down

Lose your hesitance in losing yourself to love


You do not fear

You embrace my greed


Everything is spiralling out of your control

But I will be the anchor to hold you down  

Give you your cigarette to calm you down


You start to notice, somehow your life is better with me


Just stepping out of my line of sight

Makes you experience life horribly


You feel like your life is not your own anymore

It is possessed and obsessed over by someone not you

But you're sleeping peacefully even with that fact


It brings comfort to never think of the possibility of being left behind


I have a strong emotional attachment to the things I own


I never let go

Like your little attempt to gain independence 

You heard me screaming all night


You never did it again

Like your pathetic rebellious act of breaking up with me

You heard me threaten you


That the love of your life might die because of you

And the guilt and longing will eat you inside out for years


It leaves a bad taste in your mouth

Just thinking about missing my presence

And the bare minimum warmth I provide


Your emotions are fucked out of your comprehension 


You crave that 

Push and pull

Hot and cold

Love and hate

Mind games we do

Love should exhaust you mentally and physically


Else 

Without the rollercoaster stimulation 

You know you may find out I no longer care for you


You don't want to regret it so you hold on


For the hundredth time

Ignoring your instincts to run


Hunny, I love that part of you



© VJEQ

How The Story Ends

 

I say it is inevitable

The excitement and novelty eventually faded away


Exposing my lack of sincerity

The facade of my long-term sweet–

Feelings for you have crumbled and I admit blame


Compared to the joyous beginning

Our eyes are wetter at the end of the relationship


I was wrong for not knowing myself better

Leading you on then dropping you off


Sweeping the rug under your feet

Making you feel like somehow 

You have lost control of your life


Do not let my farewell hinder you from thriving


You had lived happily before us

The hole I have pierced in your heart

Surely, will soon heal and get better 


There is a fork in the road

And we would not be walking the same route ever again



© VJEQ

Last Apology Letter

 
My goodnight messages keep getting shorter 
You are so oblivious that I cannot bring it up

My chest feels heavy thinking of how—
You dispelled the loneliness in my heart 
And now, I can afford happiness without depending on you

I am thinking of ending us
For the last time, show me your kindness
I hope to find it in your heart to forgive me

For my selfish departure, to spend this accumulated happiness
Somewhere you are not included

Putting a stop to this
I want to end us
And I don't want to waste your youth
Don't want to prolong your happiness—
As a result of my false affection, I show you

My deeply concealed loss of love for you
Forgive me for my treacherous deed

I plan to push that piece of domino
At a time you will not be entirely crushed underneath

Even if I am leaving, know that at some point
My feelings were madly real and I badly wanted to stay

But not anymore

For the sake of old times
I will cautiously take a step back
One after the other
I slowly slip away from your grasp

For the following years, I will spend this happiness wisely

To commemorate your contribution to fixing up my broken pieces
I will honour your love and sacrifices for the rest of my life

And I will forever hate myself for being the traitor that I am to you




© VJEQ

Leaving This Palace Behind



The shackles called attachment, a young woman wept

Chained to a blooming peach blossom tree

Winter in the palace is famine for the lovesick


A lover full of vigour long before

No longer walking on the same road


Seems to never again call, this ghost


Willingly, she lifted a rock just to smash her own foot

Pitifully clinging to the roots of memories as they

Go on separate ways and drift away


Been drinking wine for so many years

She sat under the tree, drunkenly longing

It has been a rough lifetime, yet one couldn't turn back


She thought no one except her was sober


On the auspicious date of separation 

One must put down the wine cup

Long white silk to conclude this illusion later


For his heart has many occupants

She must stay awake, as he strolls on his way out 

The six palaces in her hands, she dare not want


Unwillingly, this ghost mindlessly 

Stares at the disappearing yellow dragon robe

Displeasing as it is a slippery slope


A thorn in her throat, she hoped


That she didn't get drunk with the man

Pouring her wine with gentle eyes

She fell asleep and he never stayed the night


How does one part with her own heart?

It is really the darkest when the dawn is about to break

In the morning when she woke

The bitter taste of heartbreak was apparent in the tea


Starving for home and yearning for relief


The body is intact but the soul has come adrift

 

© VJEQ

Aloe Vera for that Burnt Love


We were in each other's flames

And burned out

We believed no one is leaving us 


Never not I knew, a thing or two

About leaving you

The lack of noise followed me around


I tried to seek the light of your smile

The high, and enlightenment it gives

But I was already out of reach


Never not I knew, you weren't the one

I tried to reason my way out

To avoid harming your heart


We hoped no one is giving up

But ashes were in your stead

I was the first to step back


Apologies for ruining us



© VJEQ

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