Poster Boy

He likes seeing my tears streaming down my cheeks
I bet it brought him that different kind of kick
Proudly claims he loves my smile, however
He is just a pleaser in everyone’s eyes
My smile was his validation, trophy for the winner

Stolen photo of mine in his empty wallet

He would never let himself love someone

More than he loved to invalidate my protests

Every night he would start a fight to spite me

He would push his way into my mind

Never thought it was a happy surprise

I keep thinking if chasing me around was fun

And settling down should be a punishment for a woman

The set of rules might as well burn me at the stake

Guilty of disapproving our love story called chase

I wonder if my smile exists not just to make you gloat

Is my presence by your side a stroke to your ego?

Is my happiness truly mine and not in your control?

What a shame, we dragged the years to prove a point

Our love showed the way to a pitiful course

Even on the sidewalk, you take the time to slowly walk

How come in hurting me, you do it in haste

Hesitance was not even painted on your face

Please step aside so that I can breathe

But I know you won't let me

It's not a compliment, you are so domineering

 

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My Lover Is A Pet Owner

A person in love is a pet

Gullible to its master

Will wag its tail in satisfaction

You say 'sit', I’ll obey

Submissive by choice

Will kneel by your order, so

Excuse the abandonment and infidelities

I wasn’t given a right to be respected

Loyalty is in danger

By men’s exploitation 

I wish that these puppy eyes

Will work again for another time

I’ll eagerly eat the same food

The lies you feed me every day

Because I don’t know my worth

I have nowhere to go

Only to you

I’ll turn a blind eye to your imperfections

Admire your cunningness, and

The audacity to take me for granted

You are like a child wanting a pet

And when the interest is gone

You’ll get another one

To spice things up

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Fungible

Here is to more wishes he was here

To remove the guilt of him fleeing

He did not take with him

He should return my receipt–

But for what more use does it have

My being is not wholly mine

Just cold rotten milk waiting

Seal is broken, I cannot turn back 

I believe by only his hands

To pick me right back up

Because I was not replaceable

Until he put my value down

By him, I want to be disposed of

Contemplating–

To force me out of his shelf

Welcome, temporary bliss

He only knows me if he wants a tease

Someone to simmer down the craving he feels

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You Placed My Glasses on the Nightstand

You forgot where you put my glasses

After the hours of mischief

Playing robbers and cops, the kisses

Will never let you go, my lifeline

We blame the goldfish, swimming

In the fishbowl silently waiting, scheming

Made you forget where the glasses are

Your version of me sadly deteriorated

In the depth of its fishbowl territory

Our arguments echo through the hall

In its tiny stone castle’s cold floor

Your stolen memories laid bare as a bone

In your bed, we’re trying to dig up

Important memories you must’ve misplaced

In your stay to the dreamscape

This could be romantic, if and only if–

I can pull you out of this situation

You’d be warming my hands, supposedly

But wiping tears on your face, regrettably

You are like, I love– who?

You don’t know what I am crying for

Forgot why you’ve loved me before

Desperation weighs more than my beliefs 

Let my tears be the offering to the gods 

You’ve become like an air bubble

Empty of recognition, I am now a stranger 

It’s fine if my glasses stay missing

If the condition is, you are found

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Your Prayers for Me

You go to church every lord's day

How can you pray while my nakedness 
Rewinds in your foul mind
You kneel before your god 
When you make me kneel before you a lot

 

When the blessed birds sing
I hope you hear my pleads for mercy
How will you escape your sins?
As the church bells ring





May you feel the weight of my hands
As I slap you on your chest and arms

Through you, and you, my blood shed on thy sheets

What will you do to make the most out of this?





To make the punishment worth getting
As you ask for forgiveness
Include me in your novenas
For I also need saving from the devil





I’ve created in the image of you.

© VJEQ